Miss A is having surgery today. Grommets, adenoids and tonsils. And I am freaking out just to put it lightly.
We had to be at the hospital by 7:30am – I then had to answer the same questions to at least 4 people and then just after 9am I’ve given her a Kiss, whispered I love you in her ear and left her in the hands of her ENT.
She didn’t wake up on the way to the hospital or during any of the pre-op stuff. So that’s hard for me know she doesn’t even know we are here. She is expecting to wake up in her bed just like she always does but today that’s not the case. Today she is going to wake up confused and sore. I can only hope a mothers love can ease some of that.
I was reassured when her ENT come bouncing into the room prior to her being put under to talk me through the surgery once again. Then he left and it was real and scary and as they put the gas mask over her face and her body began to react and stiffen. It was then I was told one more kiss and I would need to leave. It was then I couldn’t hold it in anymore and I felt tears running down my face.
So I’ll now sit in the waiting area for the next hour or so until they call me into recovery. Pretending I’m a big brave girl and thinking positive thoughts.